I’m Scared to Try

I’m scared to put myself out there. I’m scared to finish my book and release it. I’m scared to post regularly on social media. I’m scared to be noticed. But above all, I’m scared to not be noticed. After months of putting it off, I finally started an Instagram (@kirajcole) to accompany this blog. Part…

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Why Am I Like This? | On Focus

I drive myself crazy with my constantly changing mind and moods. Bear with me, ya’ll. For a couple months, I had the idea in my head that I could do everything I’m passionate about at once. That I could work my regular job 40 hours per week, write my novel, paint, design jewelry, do whatever…

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Should You Start a Blog?

Over-saturated. You’ve heard it a million times about a million things. I’ma tell you a secret: nothing is really over-saturated. No market, no area of expertise. What people really mean when they say that, probably without realizing it, is there is an overabundance of average-ness in a particular space. It’s not about what you do,…

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State of Flow

Flow is important. It provides vital information about what you should be spending your time on. I’m referring to a “state of flow”, a state we slip into when we are doing an activity we love, a state of total immersion. Time ceases, ideas come effortlessly. I experience a state of flow when I write…

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I Got What I Wanted, Now What?

I got a new job! The kind of job I’ve been wanting since I graduated from college almost three years ago. No contact with the general public, nice coworkers, my own desk, and plenty of work! New Job, Week 1, Tuesday I’m incredibly nervous because I have so much to learn about my job, and…

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Adult Goals, Childlike Expectations

Whenever I had free time as a kid, which was often, I would craft or play music or write something. All that play is the foundation of the creative skills I have now. I have a burning desire to create everyday, although judging by how often I do it you wouldn’t think so. When I…

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Getting to the Good Part

I love painting. I hate drawing. In addition to writing, making art is a calling of mine. This means I can’t stop doing it, even though I go through phases of thinking I’m horrible at it. I took most of the art classes offered at my high school, I went to art college for a…

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Rejection Part 3: Actually Getting Over It

I wrote about rejection (twice) as if I dealt with it well. I didn’t. My self-esteem has been in the absolute toilet since July. I sat down and wrote for my book for the first time in a long time on Thursday. My thoughts were bleak as I began to type: This is stupid, terrible…

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I Don’t Want To

I’ve been confronting my laziness. Every time I find a shred of motivation, I tell myself: “I don’t feel like it yet.” “I’ve been having a hard time, I deserve a break.” It’s easy to give in to my impulse to take a break, to rest, but it never feels right. It never feels like…

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The Subtly of Progress

I’m impatient. You’re impatient. We want to start doing something and immediately have it be the best thing that’s ever been done, no matter how firmly the logical parts of our brains tell us that isn’t going to happen. I looked up one day and I had written 20 blog posts. I looked up one…

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