State of Flow

Flow is important. It provides vital information about what you should be spending your time on. I’m referring to a “state of flow”, a state we slip into when we are doing an activity we love, a state of total immersion. Time ceases, ideas come effortlessly. I experience a state of flow when I write…

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The Click – A Little Prose #2

Everything feels wrong at first for someone as neurotic as me, but I have learned to have patience for the click.  The click from uneasy to sure, from stranger to acquaintance, from murkiness to clarity. It’s coming, just gotta wait for it.

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Reaching – A Little Prose #1

I look around and think, who are these people? Is this what I am? Am I different? Is that better? Should I drown every part of me that’s confused and uncomfortable, and feels that there’s more than this? Of course not.

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I Got What I Wanted, Now What?

I got a new job! The kind of job I’ve been wanting since I graduated from college almost three years ago. No contact with the general public, nice coworkers, my own desk, and plenty of work! New Job, Week 1, Tuesday I’m incredibly nervous because I have so much to learn about my job, and…

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How to Silence your Inner Critic

This past week I heard (or read, I can’t remember) the phrase: “Get out of your head and into your body.” It was in reference to creative work. This inspired a light bulb moment. I know that once I start my creative work, and I’ve been at it for a few minutes, my relentless inner…

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Adult Goals, Childlike Expectations

Whenever I had free time as a kid, which was often, I would craft or play music or write something. All that play is the foundation of the creative skills I have now. I have a burning desire to create everyday, although judging by how often I do it you wouldn’t think so. When I…

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Getting to the Good Part

I love painting. I hate drawing. In addition to writing, making art is a calling of mine. This means I can’t stop doing it, even though I go through phases of thinking I’m horrible at it. I took most of the art classes offered at my high school, I went to art college for a…

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Rejection Part 3: Actually Getting Over It

I wrote about rejection (twice) as if I dealt with it well. I didn’t. My self-esteem has been in the absolute toilet since July. I sat down and wrote for my book for the first time in a long time on Thursday. My thoughts were bleak as I began to type: This is stupid, terrible…

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I Don’t Want To

I’ve been confronting my laziness. Every time I find a shred of motivation, I tell myself: “I don’t feel like it yet.” “I’ve been having a hard time, I deserve a break.” It’s easy to give in to my impulse to take a break, to rest, but it never feels right. It never feels like…

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The Subtly of Progress

I’m impatient. You’re impatient. We want to start doing something and immediately have it be the best thing that’s ever been done, no matter how firmly the logical parts of our brains tell us that isn’t going to happen. I looked up one day and I had written 20 blog posts. I looked up one…

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